la lame

the blade

she's always there

haunting me

i'm strapped

to a table

and she's the blade

on a pendulum 

getting ever closer

by the heartbeat

and it's only 

terrifying because

i don't know 

if she's going to 

cut me in half

or sever the bonds

and set me free

maison de verre

halloween at the glass house

october 31 2006

pomona, california

les films

the movies

august 2006

livingston, montana

surprise surprise

surprise surprise

i was unpacking 

some boxes

and bins

i had stored in

a friend's garage

for a while

and i came across 

a little box

i had hidden

and left for myself

almost a year

ago.

alas, the box

was a pack

of spirits.

wellwellwell

i'm a clever bastard

leaving a pack

of cigarettes

for myself 

to find like that.

(ha)

two or three were

gone,

apparently burnt away;

spent months ago

in some 

abandoned rundown 

carport

off of the 

main drag of that

college town

while loathing life

itself and my

inability to do 

anything right.

anyway, 

i'll slink away 

and find some 

quality time with 

my seventeen

or eighteen 

cylindrical, slim,

additive-free

friends. 

and now there's some-

one in front of me

twirling a pen around

and it's mesmerizing. 

nuit faucons

gimme l-u-v

june 2006

wyoming, minnesota

dormir dans la journée

sleeping during the day

i came 

halfway across the world

to get away from you. 

to give you all the space you need.

all the time you need.

and now i have a

hard time

sleeping at night

sometimes. 

so i end up

sleeping during the day

which comforts me a little,

knowing that i'm sleeping

at the same time you are.

une cigarette

on cigarettes:

isn't it strange that something that kills you brings you comfort?

it's like hugging a knife. 

nouvelle année

the new year

so this is the new year

and ben gibbard 

doesn't feel any different.

but all the kids at

the motel six or 

in their parents' 

shag rug covered basements 

certainly are going to 

in a little while.

and when they're hungover, 

sleeping it off,

the rest of the world will 

wake up,

maybe a little later 

than usual,

and we'll greet this

beast of a year

with fiery enthusiasm

knowing full and well

we are one year closer

to armageddon.